Put Up or Shut Up

Brittany's birthday was today. I think we did some pretty kick ass things. I bought penis straws and shiny candles and Sara and I made her a cake. She was pretty happy. I was really impressed with John. He bought her roses and a card and a movie and some melon drink that she likes. It was actually very romantic, it's nice to see he cares for her because sometimes I wonder about their relationship.

And now I am sad because my tummy hurts, and my money is almost gone, and my period is coming soon.

Now starts the conserving period. I'm going to buy less and smaller. If I buy for Kyle he'll have to eat cheap. I will no longer offer to feed everyone, or buy things to make dinner. Thats just the way it should be and probably should have been all along.

I am feeling unhealthy. I will go to the gym tomorrow, even if it nobody else does, I will find a way there.

I may also be feeling unappreciated but I'm not sure if it's me or the PMS talking.

I also feel like I have been annoying him for a few days now. I don't like it.

I bought Reese's Cups on my way home but I'm going to save them for another time.

I really need to get my shit together. I've bombed 2 tests so far and I have missed more classes than I should have. This needs to stop. I need to learn to say no.

It's my own fault.

I need a hug and possible a good cry as well.

That is all.
Goodnight.